Effort

a poem by Uma

Howsoever hard I try,
To keep my mind calm and quiet,
At peace and at rest,
It invariably gives me the slip,
And wanders on its own,
To get agitated, wistful and nervous all the time.

Howsoever hard I try,
To keep my emotions under the check,
In a jiffy the mind explodes into anger, bursts into tears,
Wallows in the grief and basks itself in the jealousy,
Behaving according to its own wishes all the time.

Howsoever hard I try,
To keep my mind into predefined sphere,
It jumps over its boundaries and disappears,
Having a trip of its own and not bothering to obey the rules,
But it nonetheless returns to promptly jeer at me all the time,

I feel lost and admit to self that I am a big failure
Not able to control my own mind
A helpless failure and nothing else,
The mind only sneers and laughs

But it is the same mind which again comes back to me and says
Why cry over being a failure? Don’t be a fool,
Think of the other side
Think of the fact that you are still trying and haven’t given up!!