The apocryphal identity

a poem by Shivshankar A

Heavy thoughts on my mind tonight
Digging in to the dirt to find answers
Thoughts, heavy thoughts, cloud my dreams tonight

I chased the fears
Never realized, chased them nowhere
They come back to me
Haunting me tonight

I laughed my heart out
Never realized it was unreal
I woke up to find myself exhausted
Broken and empty

I lied to her
The lie eats me up tonight
Lies steal my soul tonight
Steal my love tonight

Cherished experiences,
Pleasures yesterday but my pain today

Leave me in isolation
I shall say my prayers
To the lord
Been so unkind