Show my path

a poem by Sakthi Ravichandran

I am totally confused and with tears
Cause there is a call from the old hell and
The threat from my new heaven
Where I will have to go? To remain in heaven
Or to go to the old and nasty hell
It is a question screwing my mind.
Though I am solid and strong in state
My mind wavers and keeps me in fear
Though the Lord is so kind enough to me
The order from the hell to stronger than His love
With full of frustrations, I decided to go to hell
To avoid all confusions and worries
Is it correct? Show my path. Dear!