Just day-to-day is all I see, through pain that’s inner deep
Security of life has left and nightmares fill my sleep
Was just a short small time ago when health of never thought
Now I find that what I’ve lost, with money can’t be bought

I feel the depths of sorrow for self and all I love
And understand not why God calls and wants me there above
I feel depressed and helpless, unable to attain
Why I carry burdens load and yet cannot remain

To mornings now I waken, though bright they seem so dim
I try to smile but sadness and pain again come in
My family carry burden, I know their hidden fear
Will I last another month or even just a year?

I feel deprived, forgotten, by good and futures bliss
The years I’ve had don’t feel enough, already much I miss
My family and their little ways, the troubles that they share
All that just might happen, in time when I’m not there

Everyday I pray now and hope with hopes own will
That fate will give another chance, the killer in me kill
That I will see a lot more years with all my family near
That I will see the future come with those that I hold dear