Soul Mate

a poem by Vidya Kudva

How do I know your heart’s desire!
Echoes as it also in mine;
Completed thoughts, unvoiced songs,
wants, needs: same all time;
so, you are my soulmate.

Oft as I would take you my own;
I also gave all of what I own,
Nothing sacred was with me-
To be kept for posterity.

My love wasn’t what you saw;
saw the tantrums and whims
They were just my impulses:
feelings spontaneous from within.

Nothing ventured nothing have;
You did not want a folly;
But our trysts did not cease
though you were quite pally.

The love that drew me shining near
had vanished without a trace
did not want to ask myself
or your ideas to brace.

Desperation caught me fast
could see a fancy wouldn’t last.
With no quivering response from you,
my love lost all its hue.

Now and then, I still do think
About life’s crazy twist.
When I wasn’t looking for one
tossed a soulmate in the run.

‘Twas hard but caught hold of him,
just to be pushed out from the rim.
Cast adrift, no anchor;
Sailed for days and nights galore.

Knowing that the port I want to go
Is not the one that one would row, no!