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Lost in myself

a poem by Abhaya Awasthi

𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘢 𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯,
𝘐𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴, 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘶𝘱 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯’
𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥
𝘎𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘮𝘦𝘴𝘮𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘻𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦
𝘙𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘳𝘮𝘴,
𝘔𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘤𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦,
𝘙𝘶𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘵.
𝘚𝘦𝘭𝘧-𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘦,
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘢𝘮 𝘐 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯?
𝘋𝘪𝘥𝘯’𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥
𝘚𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘢 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴
𝘐𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯’𝘵
𝘚𝘰 𝘣𝘢𝘥 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴,
𝘚𝘭𝘪𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴
𝘐’𝘥 𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘶𝘱 𝘥𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘰𝘤𝘦𝘢𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘯𝘰 𝘣𝘰𝘵𝘵𝘰𝘮.
𝘌𝘹𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘳𝘣𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭.
𝘓𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘯𝘯𝘶𝘪 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘳.
‘𝘓𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢 𝘵𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘮𝘦’,
𝘐 𝘵𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶,
𝘠𝘦𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘦𝘱𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘦𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘥𝘰𝘸
𝘙𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘥𝘢𝘮𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭.
𝘙𝘶𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘩,
𝘐 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘰𝘵𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘱𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘶𝘥 𝘴𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘮𝘦.
𝘓𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘳
𝘓𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘺, 𝘐 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘵𝘩 𝘶𝘯𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘥.