I find myself running away

a poem by Tanushree Nair

Sometimes I can see myself running
But what am I running from?
I’m running from life.
It’s impossible to get away.
Sometimes I wish I could just close my eyes,
And then things would be different.
I just want to be somebody.
I don’t know if I can, but I’ll try.
I’ve messed up in my life more then once.
But at least I’m still alive.
But do I want to be?
Yes… I do.
People mess up all the time.
It’s no reason to just run away.
If you do, your problems will wait for you.
You just gotta move on.
You have to accept what you’ve done.
Just can’t sit and feel sorry for yourself.
Life’s not that bad.
It’s what you make it out to be.
There will be good and bad times.
Sometimes more bad than good.
Either way it’s life.
I would never want to change my life.
Even though I’ve messed up in the past.
I think it made me a stronger person.
So instead of running,
I’ll stay and take life as it is!
And that’s probably how
I guess god meant life to be
For me or probably for
Every teenager
But I know somewhere deep inside
That life is different for everyone
Although the ingredients for the
So called recipe called ‘life’
There are the same mess-up’s
There are the same few moments
Of pride of love, of moments to remember,
In times when you are down
To make you realise that
After every night of captivity and loneliness
There come the beautiful and magnificent
And warm sunrises which bring the happiness
Back into life
Now as I find myself running away
From myself, I slowly turn back
To see how far I have come, how far I have
Run away from myself, and
I find myself sitting there
under the shade of that tree and
enjoying myself with the small pleasantries of life…
And that’s what made me stop running away from myself…
One fine day… I stopped…