I have a mind of my own
to think the night and day
yet I am so fickle minded
‘coz I don’t have much say.
Life at this point of time
demands commitment, makes me bow,
asks for faulty promises
I can’t make any for now.
Even if I decide
the decisions will be expensive.
I’ll have the land up hurting one
so I ought to play defensive.
What is it I must choose?
The demand of all or my desire?
The demand will bring happiness in abundance
but the desire boasts my fire.
Something strikes me and I persuade myself.
Let the flow for desire be as it is
for sure I will be his one day.
My life will be in bliss.
Next moment I think of the one
who loves me with his heart and soul.
Not any longer do I feel for him.
There’s a vast change in my role.
My dream is what I desire
only aspiration my only hope.
I’ve built my world around him
now without him I cannot cope.
When he showers love on me, the crazier I go
these people don’t seem to understand
my feelings which I can’t show.
Oh Lord Almighty!
You gave me the most precious gem
I have it in my hand.
I see it now and then.
Wish it values me as
much as I value it.
Assure me his love for life
with no negotiations not one bit.
Yes, I do believe in luck ‘n’ fate.
I believe in destiny.
If I am a staunch believer,
then why this agony?
If we weren’t meant for each other
our love wouldn’t have ever grown
Lord! Help me explain this to all.
I can do it on my own
but first free the one who loves me
from my thoughts and my dreams.
Make him believe I’m not for him.
It’s not like what it seems.
I ask him to forgive me for times
I’ve lied, misbehaved or cheated with him.
It was all under pressure and anger
that I made his life dim.
Now my life is in a dilemma.
I’ve lost my thinking power.
I hope not to mess up my world
by every passing hour.
I need your help and blessings my Lord
to set all free and overcome all odds.