That world never found

a poem by Vasupradha Vasudevan

Beauty in its birth, filled the place with wonder
Excited to the ultimate
I moved my stature
I hadn’t known all this while that
I hadn’t recognized where I were
I hadn’t seen a movement in that
Stillness was all I could swear

Everywhere the bloom was full
Everywhere the gloom was lost
The rippling damsels cleansed the obscurity,
My prison I had escaped from it alas!
I could fly, I could stroll, I could run, I could dance,
I could swim, I could jump, I could sing and I could die
I could do all that I couldn’t, yet I could do all that then

Not a command froze me,
Not a gaze grounded me,
Not a penny interested me,
Not an honor enthralled me,
Not a crown impressed me,
Not a companion engaged me,
Not a tear neared me,
Not an embrace comforted me,
Not nothing that was required of me

There was wholesome life, yet nothing to conquer
There was abundant happiness, yet nothing to divide
There were towering angels, yet nothing to destruct
There was booming lush, yet nothing to destroy
There was immense confidence, yet nothing to confront
There was all peculiarity, yet nothing to abominate
There was no one, yet only me
There was everything everywhere, yet all only for me!

Thirst dint kill me, hunger dint haunt me,
Lust dint get the better of me, love dint affect me,
Thoughts dint distract me, thriving dint scare me,
Fate dint laugh at me, fame dint wave at me
Sorrow dint purge me, sun dint scorch me,
Heights dint bother me, depths dint deplete me,
Fascination dint lurk me, imagination dint swallow me,
Pampering dint worsen me, plunging dint astonish me,
Yet reality dint renounce me and time dint trust me!
Wait! I cried! But no one to hear
I weren’t hallucinating
I weren’t dreaming either
All things swirled around me, had been dumped back
My lips felt numb, I couldn’t breathe,
I had traveled far away from evil, yet I had returned to meet it,
All things come to an end, I hadn’t realized then,
I had strayed wildly into the cherish, the jinx was over now,
I could still hear my mind craving, racing
Where, where was I taken, is still something not revealing!