It’s you who has taken a decision
which I was never a part of
It’s you who thought I am not worth of
what I desire for
I remember the day when you said
you wanted out
I remember me juggling for answers
which I had no questions for
I wonder if it was time or if it was fair on me
or was it only you
I wonder how you left with
no looking back too
For a minute I wondered if it was a dream,
I kept pinching myself with no self esteem
How could I ever let you incharge of my life,
when I knew people always leave me behind
Together, on one table,
But not so together.
Plugged into a surreal world,
Distant from reality.
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Look, we are on one table together
Though not so together.
I am lost…
Deep and deeper than ever,
Somewhere in the recesses of my black 5 inch HD screen
With our smartphones getting smart, smarter and smarter-er
I see our memories of being together getting faint, fainter and fainter-er
Somehow, I fail to remember
The last time we held hands
Or the time when you clasped me tight in your arms
I fail to remember the last time we sat together and actually LOL-ed
Or the time when I said something and you gave your approving nod.
But, I remember the day you first texted me a “Hi!”
And the day you posted a picture of you eating an apple pie
I remember the day I posted a comment
And you were the first one to reply back with a long statement
I also remember the day you sent me a heart emoji
And I was upset it was yellow and not red
I remember the day we became friends on FB
And my heart wasn’t for a moment steady!
I’ve been typing this long long message for all that long
And I find it all entirely wrong
Because we’ve been sitting on the same table for an hour or more
Without a word to say it all.
Where were you
When the day dawned
When the nights slept
And the winds screamed
Keeping my eyes
Open through the days
Little by little
Closing some nights
Once upon a time
Became the last line
Oh how could this happen
Could I be lying?
Holding on to strands
Of tiny moments
Of love and joy and happiness
Of long lost wonderness
Whatever they say
The hope will never dry
Knowing you are out there
Fighting a lone battle
Know just this
There is a price to pay
For what we did not do
But there is a price to pay
Also for what we do
So never be broken
Rise high and shine
Blessed is the day when I can see you
But you not me
– A loving parent remembering a son who never came back