Captaincy

a poem by Abhinav Vinayakh Shankar

May be I shouldn’t be doing this.
May be I wasn’t born for this.
May be I wasn’t cut out for this.
This is killing me
Tearing me and others around apart
May be I am just another NORMAL guy,
The bad guy trying to be good
May be I cannot decide;
May be I cannot think on my feet;
May be I will never learn strategy;
May be I will never learn Brearley’s art;
May be I will never learn how to speak to people;
Let alone a press conference
A leader;
Not one; Never have been one;
I definitely wasn’t born that way…
I think these guys are not made; they are born
I will never be a good one;
But my team needs a Great one.
My team as always goes ahead of me.
I quit, loser that I am, amidst tears…