Am I… really?

a poem by Jyoti

Am I really charmed by that bed of tulips
Or simply feasting my eyes to the fill
Am I intoxicated by that vine of ripe grapes
Or just finding an excuse to lie still

Am I optimistic about every golden drop of sun
Or just trying to give my mood; an uplift
Am I really waiting for mist to dissolve
Or just waiting for answers to life’s quiz

Am I praying for the fawn to get back to its herd
Or truly experiencing that separation pain
Am I really finding beauty in just everything
Or plainly, have I just fallen in love again