Category Archives: Feelings

Spell of life

He created a heart
And also placed feelings
Yearning for care
I felt the need for a compassionate company
In the place of Love
I bought a boon
But only later I realised
That it was a curse
I often questioned myself
Why at all we have this heart
But it seems to be an unsolved mystery…

Her face

Her serene face expressing
Lost charm and cheer
Her dejected look expressing
Lost faith and fun
Her vague smile expressing
Lost love and life
Her suppressed spirit expressing
Lost affection, touched with a pinch of hope for recovery…

Miles away

Every time I pass your way
A thought so instant in my mind
Evoke my emotions with a say
With the mysterious language of eyes you lend
In my hands you place thou heart
Packed with an impeccable smile
Captured by the clutches of thy love art
You live within me even, when I’m apart from you by miles

Love Plight

Sojourn on this earth
To engrave two sweet words
On my heart
Full body tattooed but heart remained
Intact
And it has to wait thousand years
Because nobody believes on your
Sweet crooning
What you show, what you express
Is not really you
Faithless fathom of deep deep mind
Whom you not recognize well
All that your only assumption
And beside world’s illusions
No match to your private password
You yearn a lot but all ignored as worst
What you humbly beg or plead and apply
Serving anywhere at the rate global
So you scribble whole night, your bio-data
For job passionately
It seems otherwise no significant evidence
To prove I exist in the world
Except these scattered things on bed
Which hallucinating me
That I belong beside world
With zero tolerance and no hassles
That path may be underground and has
To go alone in darkness with risk of life
Same story of antagonist may arise in
Love with some difference
How horrible is outcome in this hell
You dare to face the death
Even so many loving peoples around you

For a moment

Come monsoon dancing my heart upskirt
Tears in eyes waiting for you with thirsty lips
Plough in my body to sow seeds of more than hunger
Let it ripe with my knowledge of barrenness
So the shadow happiness never hug me
And wind never blows in my ears cradle song

I tried to forget my mother in foliage
One day my sad identity buried in this soil
Sky lonely never cries as before
Because nobody witness my death as human being
It needs to gather all in one my thousand pieces
What is impossible for you now
Because I never lived like that before for a moment

Unheard Feelings

When people said, it’s raining
I wondered if it was raining
When people said, it’s sunny
I wondered if it was sunny

When people said, it’s cold
I wondered if it was cold
From my memory I unfold
The story that I never told

Through the window I see
The little boy play with glee
With his arms spread apart
Hugging father sky’s heart

And each drop, when it fell
His cheeks, they both swell
His lips wore a tender smile
His happiness spread a mile

Staring the fields it was a fun
All crops swung along the sun
They turned from east to west
As if groping for mama’s breast

At night, I heard birds cuddle
Sharing their wings and huddle
All the siblings slept together
Promising to separate never

These gentle family knots
And their lovely thoughts
To understand them, I fail
In this lonely juvenile jail

Memory Lane

My mind is running down the memory lane
Down an alive ambience of a few close to heart memories
Because it is not always when you feel alive,
or have the feeling of living in the moment,
or have the opportunity of sucking the jazz of life out of your life!

I feel so young at heart, just these memories make me feel young
like I was a kid all over again like I was living a second childhood.

Don’t we all wish that we could just live the good parts of our lives
the peppy, jazzy, happy, carefree ones!
The ones where you laughed your ass of with your friends,
the one where you and your sibling had your own small secrets,
the one where your crush asked you on a date,
the long road trips, the carefree vacations with family!
Sigh!

But we all know that only after a heavy rain comes the rainbow,
And only if we know what something bad feels like will we value something good…
and at times these bad things teach us, and make us stronger.
And so, we will have to accept the way our life is!
With its good and bad and so I’m now down a gloomy memory lane
with a proud smile on my face.

Tribute

Belated confession
Won’t heal your wounds
I know

My heart beats
Won’t smooth the harp in heaven
I know

Yet
At your feet
Trampled flowers
Bleeding
Worm eaten leaves
Wavering

A crow opens the burning beaks
Gulps a full moon

Paths

Striven feet are
Stumbled on this river bank
Cold and slender fingers
Wading through the rapture of ripples
Reminding
Dying
Dying forever

Eclipsed were the ways

Pain strewn thorns
Anguished astray
Wavering wilderness
Pensive plodding paths

Wither
Wither forever

After
Light years
I know
You will map us
On the palm of a miser

From an Aliens Heart

Trying my way to reach home
In a world mysterious but lot known
An ill fate day when I got lost in the woods
Left behind was me and my tears
And not the space ship I landed from
My destiny had got me stuck

So here I am, an Alien as they say
No rescue, no food, no shelter
And then searching life on a planet
Labeled with name Earth
Never ever seen so busy like
A place busiest but I the loneliest

Days flew by my side like the airy breeze
Reminding me who I was
What was my Identity
A stranger with no definition
He cruel sun peeling off my skin
Forcing me to quit but where

And one day across the silent river
Saw a paradise flowing with the water
Balancing her life in gifts of pulchritude was she
An angel our technology had never ever produced
A wholesome beauty devoid of my planet
What was she, asked my shiny black eyes

Human mythology always got us wrong
Cuz my heart sensed something for her
I knew that something was love
Forgetting I was an alien
Forgetting my mission wasn’t to be there
Forgetting every futuristic second of mine

I advanced but in the rarest direction
Cuz she never reciprocated
All I saw in her deer eyes
Were feelings of fear and loathe for me
Treatment I should have anticipated
But all we do is take chances

Differing in sizes and worlds we belong
However, feelings and emotions remaining the same
A human like heart existed, only the body went missing
Acceptance rate was next to impossible
Am crawling back to mars now
But someday I’ll be back as a human!

I am a drop

I am a drop,
as I am water;
I am water,
as I am air.

I am ocean,
as I am made of drops;
drops are of water,
and water is of air.

As I am ocean,
there are waves,
waves are there,
as there is wind,
wind is there,
as there is air.

As the wave remembers ocean,
I remember my Cosmic Family,
one family to lean on
and experience the bliss invaluable.

Cohesion and cooperation of drops
make the ocean what it is;
blue colour of ocean,
blends well with blue colour of the sky,
and remain inseparably one.

As I am wave,
I rise up to greater heights,
to hug and kiss the sky,
then come down and move on
to prostrate on Mother Earth,
as I am born on this earth
and I am earthly.

When earth is so humble,
why should I not be the same?
shedding all pride in me
adding unwanted weight
to have a great fall one day
tearing me into innumerable pieces
to get easily mixed up with the earth
to be inseparably one
as to ocean of drops.

As I am worthy child of the Mother Earth,
I lean on one family – cosmic family,
and experience the bliss,
all long for to live long.

Wasteland – Paraphrased

The golden sun has disappeared into the night sky
Having released all worries from its heart
As the air is filled with joy and peace

And yet
I have only the thoughts of my love
And how much was left to be shared

As the deserted sand settles towards the horizon;
Alone, skimming the restless surface of the vast sea

I find myself in bliss less solitude
My heart conceiving stabbing pain-
Pain realized only by the disheartened

So much time has been lost
God’s creation wasted
My feelings unrevealed – wasted
Unspoken promises of love – wasted

Now-
There is nothing but me without my love
Without his embrace;
Only emptiness,
And reverberating silence.

And yet
Your eyes follow me everywhere I go
How much I miss you, no one knows

Messages

Clouds give us the real messages
Not the recorded SMS ones;
Time shows us what truth is
Not the printed pages of the text book.

Mother earth can hold the germ
Longer than our flesh and blood;
And the germ so tiny in size
Holds the whole life in it.

Wind carries the germ far and wide
To be planted in the soil and to wait;
The time comes and it sprouts and grows
An awesome fruiting tree is right in our front.

I don’t run hither and thither
But look into the sky for my message.
I know life takes its turns like the creek
That flows from hills and runs for fields.

I don’t search for God or ask Him anything
The Divine Nature takes its decision.
And takes care if I I have a worthy germ
Or uses me as manure when I decompose.

Shadows Lurking in the Dark

Mistakes of the Past are like a shadow;
Comes with you even in a meadow.

Lets you look the world around
Only to get an obtrusive background.

It makes you feel shy and dry;
When time is that you want to buy.

It keeps howling and wooing;
And makes you feel like Crying.

Though there is timely help to prop you up;
The Shadows Lurking in the dark are there as a back up