Author Archives: Sidharth Kumar

Soldier

Just back from the war of love
An armed soldier, me
Cold defeat against the animosity
All rising within you
No shelling designed to get it down
To burst the hatred
And sour mountain standing in my way
Its me alone
Versus the odd timings of my destiny
Places I fell
Injured and hurt this heart was
With heads down
Am back with the world laughing
Failing to win you
This ain’t what a soldier desires
Since we met
Its difficult to forget you honey
But for my love
Would trespass boundaries you build
Crawl fields
A hope to reach and grab you in arms
Keep my fights on
No matter how dusty and exhausted
Not until I die
Wishing that someday this soldier will win!!!!!

From an Aliens Heart

Trying my way to reach home
In a world mysterious but lot known
An ill fate day when I got lost in the woods
Left behind was me and my tears
And not the space ship I landed from
My destiny had got me stuck

So here I am, an Alien as they say
No rescue, no food, no shelter
And then searching life on a planet
Labeled with name Earth
Never ever seen so busy like
A place busiest but I the loneliest

Days flew by my side like the airy breeze
Reminding me who I was
What was my Identity
A stranger with no definition
He cruel sun peeling off my skin
Forcing me to quit but where

And one day across the silent river
Saw a paradise flowing with the water
Balancing her life in gifts of pulchritude was she
An angel our technology had never ever produced
A wholesome beauty devoid of my planet
What was she, asked my shiny black eyes

Human mythology always got us wrong
Cuz my heart sensed something for her
I knew that something was love
Forgetting I was an alien
Forgetting my mission wasn’t to be there
Forgetting every futuristic second of mine

I advanced but in the rarest direction
Cuz she never reciprocated
All I saw in her deer eyes
Were feelings of fear and loathe for me
Treatment I should have anticipated
But all we do is take chances

Differing in sizes and worlds we belong
However, feelings and emotions remaining the same
A human like heart existed, only the body went missing
Acceptance rate was next to impossible
Am crawling back to mars now
But someday I’ll be back as a human!

Love Actually

A day that was never to be seen
A year never remembered
A second that passed without notice
A life broken into two
Love actually lived there

The porous body evoking emotions
Color conversion to dark
Eyes that only saw you
The lips always praising you
Love actually lived there

Words that never touched her heart
Roads that led to her house
Flowers that never lost their moisture
Her golden skin that never lost the shine
Love actually lived there

The tattooed forearm with her name
The muscut perfume bearing her fame
The Arc de Triomphe to mesmerize
The fear of losing you
Love actually lived there

Morning prayers for her long life
Places meant to be together
Intertwined destiny
A reason to live
Love actually lived there

When you left…

Today eyesight has weakened
thoughts in haziness
but vision still clear
as of yesterdays
of times when we met
of times when we got along

Promises that were made
songs that were sung
truths that were bridged
future that was discussed
when you were close to me
when I was close to you

Trees which walked with us
roads which laid the carpets for us
rivers which smiled seeing us
rains which could never make us wet
when nights were beautiful like you
when days were pleasing like you

Candlelight moon
with stars our friends
nights shadowed by warmth we shared
and lights blinded by our love
when two of us made a couple
when third meant no company

The unrequited love
the incomplete me
the faded dream
the broken glasses
when you were gone
when you left…

Staying away…

Staying away from your own
When miles away from home
Culture in which I wasn’t born
One look and minutes gone
Past memories trying to shrink
Shake my head and blink

No mirth left in my jokes
When no one around were my folks
Voices I was tuned to
Faces I was familiar with
Footprints I can still trace
Places I left to chase

The fragrant air is new
Asking about me are the very few
The hurried morning rises in me
The weary evening sets in me
Planes I see overhead
Thinking, trip to my country is ahead

Days don’t seem to run
No mood to party and fun
Sleeping in my wallet is the dollar
Big, huge and green the color
Acquaintance with the hardest book
It was life’s decision, not mine to cook

Closed eyes bring me a picture
Of my family and not any stranger
Eyes of a beautiful mother
Shoulders of a proud father
Smile of a cheerful brother
Advise from a nutty sister

How close are you to me
Staying away did I realise this…

When Love Felled…

Whispering summer
To the
Defiant winter
No one came closer
When love felled

Melancholy truth
Outcry in the vast desert
Was upholding the trembling person within
Only
When love felled

Gushed not showered
By the roaring sky rains
When love felled
Heart cracked like the dry leaf
The noise was ofcourse, white

When love felled
In the wrong arms
Broken were the charms
Lost were the dreams
That night, a boy turned into man

Painless body
To the cactus thorns
Sacrifices moved on
Heart never tuned on
When love felled

From heart to the ground
When love felled
Finding answers was someone
To find
There were none

Secluded life
On the journey to the unknown
No companion
When love felled
Life came to an end…

My Illusions

As the empty road takes me along
Unless I come to fathom around
I see a jar filled with problems
House full of vultures
Couple of drops enough to drown
The dry earth about to soak me
Hiroshima’s nuke attack on me
Sound of pain travelling at speed of light
Ten weather seasons to experience instead of four
Bold souls in weak bodies
Myriad color combinations I denounce
Fate lines that now run across my body
Charred leaves with a long history to spell
A lonely child holding hands of an invisible mother
Running chariots with no horses to drive
Love definitions scribbled on the air platform
Laughter challenging the face of sorrow
The muse of my paintings on sale
Drugs to awaken not to put to sleep
The funeral of the stagnant river
Template of my body being incarnated
Loosened gravity to keep me high
Am confused and frustrated in delirium
Is this the end or start of my world?

When Love Felled

Whispering summer
To the
Defiant winter
No one came closer
When love felled

Melancholy truth
Outcry in the vast desert
Was upholding the trembling person within
Only
When love felled

Gushed not showered
By the roaring sky rains
When love felled
Heart cracked like the dry leaf
The noise was ofcourse, white

When love felled
In the wrong arms
Broken were the charms
Lost were the dreams
That night, a boy turned into man

Painless body
To the cactus thorns
Sacrifices moved on
Heart never tuned on
When love felled

From heart to the ground
When love felled
Finding answers was someone
To find
There were none

Secluded life
On the journey to the unknown
No companion
When love felled
Life came to an end…

Shadow

Its broken, its shattered
Its torn, its lost
The shadow of my love
The shadow of my pride

Deep within this world
I try finding it endlessly
Searching in all corners of the dark
An impossible task for any lover

The only possession after her death
The shadow of my love
Sole reason for me to live
Last survival piece

As I lament the loss
Consoling the heavy heart inside
Drink the tears flowing
Can’t bear, am left alone

Its broken, its shattered
Its torn, its lost
The shadow of my love
The shadow of my pride

The Difference

To love in a new world
The question I often ask myself
How would it feel like
In arms of a beautiful stranger
The one you never met
But whose blue eyes struck you
First time you saw her
Skin never seen as fair as before
A face you’d die for
Lips like the pink rose petal
Brutal and killing
Hair like the freshly woven silk
Falling below shoulders
Smile that took care of my pain
Pushing me above
Flavour I’d never wanna miss
Comes once in a life
Time that stood in her way
Turning me motionless
A serpent body to move around
Making the air freeze
Language she speaks is the sweetest
To big ears of mine
Gathering the stamina within me
That tenfolds on seeing her
When your heart beats the loudest
Saying she’s the one you need
That’s someone you came across a street
And fell in instant love
Someone you’d miss again and again
Walking on the same street
And then later when she loves you
More than anyone else
Would my love for her be different than
For my own country girl!

Apology

Wondering I said something that blew your mind
Oh believe me, it never was of my kind
Insouciant and casual as I have always been
Never thought I’ll be packed someday in chagrin
Sulking are now the nights and days within me
Thinking as when the last words came out in spree
Thwarting all the plans and desires you laid
Never imagined a color of me would make them fade
Longanimity and patience you showcased
Appreciate the virtues on which you are based
Moments that left you in a strand
Blame it to one part of land I stand
If only someone could read my true intention
That this heart lives with no pretension
A fault of the body and not the soul
Situations once stable then became out of my control
The truth about something I stole from you
The fact about something I never gave to you
Breaking the fellowship and commitment
Showing no flashes of improvement
If only a book was judged from its cover
So unfortunate, for nothing within to discover
For there I stand again
Holding my hands in pain
Reiterating the same words like a perpetual waterfall
To break any rising wall
Shadows asking for forgiveness, not the languished body
No evil but goodness that I wanted to embody
Surrendering the remaining “Apology” left within me
Protagonist thee!

Happy Valentines Day!

Language I speak today is love
    pure and soft like the white dove
To see life’s happiness in your instant smile
    get to you and walk the thousand mile
With hands and body moving together
    we both combat the rough weather
Leaving the old world behind
    to start a new world of mankind
Finding the new path love creates
    to lead to the heaven gates
Pains forgotten when besides you
    sorrows relieved when I hold you
Pious and devout figure in you
    calling pilgrims like me to worship you
Desire to get the unique you from the world
    to make me completely unfolded
And the femininity you exude
    turning on the dead cells of my mood
No roses and chocolates to present
    All I have is to shower myself to lent
God, its been a lovely day
    Wishing you a Happy Valentines day!

Moments at Taj Mahal

Rewinding my thoughts to the days gone
All I think about the time we broke the dawn
To witness the flamboyant and splendiferous Taj
Me, Ellain and PJ part of this lovely montage
Excitement levels still don’t speak of ceasing
From the start till the end it went increasing

Journey to Agra made smooth by the driving master
Dunno if it were the talks or the car running faster
Trying to get my “slang” communication on right tracks
Ohh, accompanying the discourse were also few snacks
An excursion to welcome through a break
Missing this would probably be the biggest mistake

And as we entered through the wide door
Heart desired for nothing more
Making all three of us filled with awe
Surely something unbelievable we saw
Beauty personified into the white marble tomb
First time visitors into a world just like from a mothers womb

Broke my illusion by touching the masterpiece
A dream come true, giving my mind its peace
A naive company to enjoy and remember
Sources say the best time to visit was December
But every moment spent so special and worth
So refreshing, jolly and filled with mirth

Bond that bridged between the three of us
A wonderful experience with foreigners a plus
And as time flew outwards, I knew
So sweet and humble those two
Will miss all those sparkling instances I talk of
Moments I can’t forget and will cherish of the city of love

2.5 feet

A new journey preparing within me
Ecstatic time to walk through
Turning my no’s to yes’s was the key
How I persuaded my mind, couldn’t construe

And there she was standing so pretty
Doors of heart opening to greet her
The perfect picturesque of gaiety
God’s grace on this earth made me spur

Sheer efforts in every step of mine
Now standing 2.5 feet from me was she
Red-hot smiles recharging my nerves down the spine
To be mine, was she going to agree

The poised rush of my feelings
Stopped by the turbulent gush of hers
Hell broke loose into my broken ceilings
When heard I not the one she prefers

Parched sky begging for the acid rain of love
To wipe out that someone from the walls of her mind
The bitter moments I want to get rid of
Ain’t easy for a disturbed soul to go kind

Me made from the skin of truth, not a poser
All that got us apart was the strife
Distance between us never came closer
Coz 2.5 feet became the longest gap of my life…

The Cargo

Seems like a polished morning today
The air galling in my dry hair
Uttermost special in this rain soaked mud
Making me feel a year older
Endowed with wholesome gifts my room
Sent by comrades and fellows
But my heart won’t carry by myself
Not until I finish
Unwrapping the Cargo of her Love

Beaming isn’t the day but my destiny
All to have witnessed the crimson love
Hidden beneath this cargo
Locus of all feelings and emotions for me
The one you prepare ‘n’ ship across miles
Year after year, more dearer
Can’t preen today all that long
Not until I finish
Unwrapping the Cargo of her Love

Magic more virtual than this fragile box
Subtle for ones who fell under its load
Not as hard to carry, not as difficult to think
Giving you immense gratification
When the one you desire isn’t seated next to you
But residing in the homes of your heart
Swear this day wont fade so soon
Not until I finish
Unwrapping the Cargo of her Love