Poems by
Manibhushan Rao

Warm Pain

a poem by Manibhushan Rao

When I look at you,
When I look through you,
I wanna feel the morning sunshine,
With its rays as long and fine
As the strands of your hair blowin’ in the wind,
Just before it rains,
Inside all I feel is pain,
Cold pain searing through my veins,
Reigning over me tonight,
Pain that I fight to keep out tonight,
But I can’t,
No, not tonight.

The pain comes attended with floods of memories,
A part of me feels discomfited by these memories,
But another part of me feels totally tormented,
As all I have left of you is this warm evanescence of reminiscence,
Which has turned cold,
As cold as those eyes of yours I am staring into,
Tryin’ to get a hold of myself,
As my thoughts spiral out of control,
I wanna fall through a hole in the ground beneath us,
Fall out of this unrealistic world,
As I hold your hand just you and me,
Into my world, where we can be free,

But you have changed things between us,
By making every action of mine seem suspicious,
Now I fall away,
My feelings martyred for the sake of your principles,
Knowing that I can’t hold your hand and fight this pain,
Now I fall away, into my world,
Full of lonely raptures,
Which is the Panacea for my heart,
Still healing from your blows,
Those cracks and fractures.